I wish I could figure out exactly what is I want. Or how I feel. Or what the fuck is going on with me, that’s causing this wretched feeling. I keep asking myself, in a perfect world, how would things be? What exactly is it that I want? And I have no clue.

This space isn’t private enough for me to detail exactly why I’m all confused and shit – but I suspect a large part of it is just me acting stupid.

We’ll see.